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I’m cashing in and checking out.

11 Jun

Escape.  Sometimes it feels so good.  These days I find my escape in working endless hours.  And it seems that by the time I get home, I want nothing to do with anybody.  Which is funny because at the same time I am beyond lonely.  But it makes sense.

You see, I have way too many “friendships” where I give and give and give and always initiate interaction.  And it gets hard.  I am sick of it.  I am sick of being there for people and not getting that in return.  I am sick of being there whenever somebody needs a friend, but in my darkest days I am left to suffer alone.

I don’t have the energy for it.

So here I am… this is me checking out.  To those people, I am cashing in what I have left and walking away.  If you need me, you know where to find me.  But until then, I hope you are well.

“Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option”



21 May

It is funny how we define family.

Most people would define family as their parents and siblings, those they are biologically and legally related to.  I, however, would not define family that way.  I’d say that my immediate family would be the following people:

I have more contact with these people than I do with those I am actually related to.  I see these people more than those I am related to.  And when I need a shoulder to cry on, somebody to talk to, encouragement, or a helping hand, these people are there to help out long before my “family” even notices.  It is a sad but true fact.  I can count on my friends more than I can count on my “family”.  I know more about what is going on in these people’s lives than I do about the happenings of my family.

This all makes me sad and yet happy at the same time.  I am happy that I have such amazing friends, but I am sad that my family is so absent.  Such is life, though, I suppose.

Their loss.  *attempting to convince myself this is true*

Girls Day Out!

21 Feb

Yesterday was a GDO (Girls Day Out).  And I must say that it was just what the doctor ordered.

I met up with Kristin for lunch and early afternoon 2-for-1s at Liquor Lyle’s.  Got chatted up by a man old enough to be my grandpa (why does this ALWAYS happen to me?!), and then went watch shopping.  After said adventure to peruse watches, we headed back to Minneapolis for coffee at Caffetto with Hannah and her man, followed by a drink at the Red Dragon, where Luann joined.

Following this was a run to kidnap the suddenly carless Cailin before dashing to the X for the Swarm game.  And who better to be sitting with in the 5th row looking at hot, sweaty men running around and beating eachother than Cailin, Luann, and Kristin.  Seriously, we have way too much fun.

And to celebrate the 15-5 swarm win, we ventured back to Minneapolis for late night happy hour at Azia.

So much fun!

So many laughs.

These girls are lovely!