It’s hard for me to define myself, I guess I’m just a cliche. The girl who loved too hard and didn’t get anything in return. I don’t want to be the heroine in some tragic love story.

5 Aug

You want the truth? Well, here it is. Eventually, you forget it all. First you forget everything you learned – the dates of wars and the Pythagorean Theorem. You especially forget everything you didn’t really learn, but just memorized the night before. You forget the names of all but one or two of your favorite teachers, and eventually you forget those, too. You forget your junior year class schedule and where you used to sit and your best friend’s home phone number and the lyrics to that song you must have played a million times. And eventually, but slowly, you forget your humiliations – even the ones that seemed indelible, just fade away. You forget who was cool and who was not, who was pretty, smart, athletic, and not. Who went to a good college. Who threw the best parties. Who had the most friends. You forget all of them. Even the ones you said you loved, and the ones you actually did. They’re the last to go. And then once you’ve forgotten enough, you love someone else.

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4 Responses to “It’s hard for me to define myself, I guess I’m just a cliche. The girl who loved too hard and didn’t get anything in return. I don’t want to be the heroine in some tragic love story.”

  1. Kate-Madonna August 5, 2010 at 11:36 pm #

    But what you never forget? Your strength, the beauty of feeling it again for the first time and the absolute agony in the deciding. You’re amazing. Keep it up.

  2. Steven Klassen August 10, 2010 at 9:50 am #

    That was a good book.

  3. Cammy@ClassroomConfessions August 12, 2010 at 11:02 am #

    This is amazing. It resonates with me right now as my bf dumped me last week and I have been so sad. But you’re right, time makes things different.

  4. Livi August 12, 2010 at 1:06 pm #

    I really needed to hear that right now, thanks.
    So pleased I’ve found your blog too, it’s fantastic

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